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This morning Tim, Dave, and my mom were all arguing about something in the kitchen, so they woke me up at 5. I tried to go back to sleep but I couldn't because my mom can't let things go. "DON'T USE MY COFFEE CUPS. EVERY TIME YOU VISIT YOU TAKE MY THINGS, DON'T USE ANYTHING OF MINE." They really upset my mom last night. Nothing that we've done for my grandparents has been recognized and it really pisses me off. I go to the grocery store, we cook dinner, we drive them around, and do the little things. And kids being with my grandparents is kind of a major support for them or something, they aren't COMPLETELY out of touch with the advancing world. My patience with them is really good too. Dan takes my grandpa out to golf and Andrea takes them to their medical appointments, but that's ALL they do. Movies, shopping, and comfort must not be important, I guess. Whatever, I'm really glad that they're all gone.
My grandma saw the whole thing as a huge social event, so she just loved it.
Mike's a prick, I hate him so much.

I had a doctor's appointment today at 8 so I had to "get ready" for that. It was really funny because my mom was trying to wake me up 30 minutes before, but I only need 5 minutes to get ready. I think Andrea was impressed with my time.
Dr. Gordetsky? feels up my boobs way too much and every time I come back from his office my boobs are really sore.
I was supposed to have therapy at 9 but that's when we were leaving and Petey has bailed out on me so many times that me not going today didn't bother me. She's a joke, what kind of therapist forgets to call their patients? I'm over going to see her, but she did help me...I guess.
My mom got mad because I refused to walk home from therapy. It's a long walk and I didn't have my iPod so I didn't want to go. Plus every time I go outside I have heat stroke or something.

So when we got home she told me to pack all of my things and anything I left would be thrown out. I got upset because as Thursday gets closer I feel so unaccomplished. I didn't see my friends as much as I had anticipated. I didn't do anything. I still don't have my permit. My camera is still broken. I did lose 5lbs though.
Moving is going to be really hard for me, but I'm the only one sucking it up and understanding how great this will be for all for all of us, not even my mom is takign it seriously now. She's calling it our vacation, like we're coming back after 2 weeks.
I'm afraid I won't like the kids that Tim and Luanne already know, and I'm afraid nothing will change about me. But I'm worried that I'll like it up there a hell of a lot more than down here, and then we'll just permanently move up there.

I don't even know what to pack anymore.