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to bigger and better things. Effington h3lL y34h d00D.

Yesterday I watched SLC Punk and Carina called me with 30 minutes left to go. Once the movie ended, I changed into something badass, and stuffed my pockets full of food. I love apples. I love diet soda. I love cereal. I love the inside pockets on my jacket.

Carina and I hung around at her house, and then stealthy escaped her house when Marcia and the kids were getting home. We were walking down O'Fallon back to my house for some food, and Murphy drove by us. He stuck his head out the window and yelled Hey at us and we both waved rather enthusiastically. Then as we were walking around the bend in the sidewalk we see a mass amount of plaid waving at us again. We turned around, with a high Murphy, and he gave me Kools to smoke. I ate his doritos and talked to him about hair. He also likes my hair. Then we looked at the creek under the bridge, the hidden creek in which the neighborhood I reside in is named after. And after that, we walked to TJ's house so Murphy could give him his much needed cigarettes. TJ was done with his house work so he and Murphy smoked a bowl under this other bridge with anarchy, nazi, and peace signs spray painted under it. I really enjoy watching people smoke weed. Then TJ started talking about acid and I wanted to say something about White Oleander, but I just watched the both of them. After we were all under the bridge for a good while, we walked back to the pond in Walnut Creek. Carina really had to piss so she kept walking away. Murphy asked me if Carina was always a downer, and I said she never usually talked around other people. She also asked if ducks had teeth. I'm really glad that I'm not the only person my age who thinks Carina's a dumbfuck. They thought she 'stole their high' which was really funny. Murphy went into a rant about it. After a while we walked over to Murphy's neighborhood because he was getting picked up for homecoming. He went because Chifley? was paying for him, and then they were going out to dinner which he also didn't have to pay for, and then there were parties he would go to. I should have asked to go to the party, but I didn't know how to. They were talking about Halloween too. Carina was like, "OOOOHHH Halloween!" to me and I just didn't know what to do. I don't like just asking for things or butting myself into shit. The whole day happened on accident and I was extremely grateful for it. It wasn't awkward until Murphy left. TJ asked what was next and I hadn't even thought about it. We then went our seperate waves. I hated getting home at 5 when Luanne told me I could stay out as late as I wanted. She thinks I'm a lame-ass teenager, which I guess I am. I don't really mind that I enjoy just sitting around and not talking, it's so relaxing.

What did I learn from my adventure with Murphy and TJ?
Derek isn't 'cool' anymore because of his girlfran, so they hate him. They've tried excluding them from their group, but it doesn't work. So they pretend to like him and be nice to them. I was appalled at hearing this. He doesn't seem that bad.. But he apparently worships Ashley Caito and I can't blame them for hating that. It's demeaning.
TJ's bathroom is the shit and only if you're a close friend of his will you be able to use it. It reminded me of Jessie's house. "Everyone's had sex in my bed and taken showers in my shower." Sevi's room and Valerie's bathroom. Murphy remembered me telling him about that, and it made me so glad. I love it when people listen to me, and remember what I've told them.

I just had a really nice time. The day seemed over at five, but I didn't want it to be. I called Michelle and she came over and we all walked to Carina's she could get another lighter because TJ has hers in order to take the safety off for her. We're supposed to find him today to get it, but I doubt that'll happen.
Anyway, Michelle and Carina did not get along at all. I was really disappointed in Carina for being so rude to her. We were walking on O'Fallon to Monticello Estates and WHOA GUESS WHO WE SAW!?!? Jerel and company. The kids with him were Luke and Joe Brown. I keep seeing Joe Brown around school, I'm not even sure if that's the kid's name because Jerel introduced him with a chuckle. He asked Carina how her day was, asked me how my day was, and shook hands with Michelle. I think that's why I liked him, because he's friendly. He involved everyone, and that's something I wish I could do. He did however pounce on me with a hug and I felt like we were dancing and I was about to fall. I guess it was more like a tackle, regardless I hated how I felt with his arms around me. That's why I don't like for people to hug me. I just get this intense feeling of self appreciation and I just don't want to let go. I can't just go around hugging people or visa versa because I don't need to get attached to anyone here. I don't want to become dependant on how another person makes me feel because you can't count on anyone.

The three of them walked back with us to Monticello so Carina could give Jerel a lighter for the cigarette the kids gave him. It didn't really end up happening, and I'm still confused as to why. Michelle left around 9:45 and I went back over to Carina's. Her family is so rude. Last night I wanted to watch a movie, but we watched Scarred instead. It was Scarred or Twilight. I hate Twilight.
This morning I woke up super early, and we made some nasty eggs. Spinach is not my favorite. There was hair in Brandon's eggs, and it was probably mine. I don't give a fuck.