laurelpants

fucking take not being able to do something new and exciting for Halloween. I can't believe it. Today, Carina and Kevin failed to show up at school. So we're not hanging out with Kevin. I guess Murphy doesn't have Kevin's number, and I know he doesn't know where he lives, because he couldn't help me out in my dilemma. He probably doesn't see it as a dilemma, but having to hang out with Carina all of the time really fucking sucks. I feel bad for her though, because Marcia's selfish and her dad has no idea what's going on. Murphy again didn't invite me to join him on his Halloween escapade, but did say he'd be getting high with Nathan. Surprise. He's going to make a pipe out of his toy gun, because he likes to be creative. He was dressed as a cowboy today.
In novel, kids were dressed up and Rachel was wearing the boots that I oh so desire. We talked about her boots, and she told me I could get them at Target. I thought that was weird, because she has them, but then again I thought that it really wasn't a big deal and hated myself for thinking that it was. But seriously, they're PERFECT. The boots at Urban Outfitters are $78 and have heel, but the ones from Target don't. H0lL4~
I liked being dressed as Nancy Drew, because I fucking loved the outfit even though the shoes gave me blisters. I met two new girls today, because of Michelle. Molly and Alexis. I like Molly more than Alexis because Alexis looks conservative. Molly likes my way of dress, or today's way of dress. She also didn't seem grossed out at the thought of buying shit from Goodwill. I hope talking to her wasn't a one time only kind of thing.
In art, Derek was staring a hole into my soul. Whenever he answered a question, I'd look at him, and he was staring at me rather intensely and it made me really uncomfortable. I hated darting my eyes away from his, because that's a sign of insecurity and that's something I despise to admit. When I was cutting the excess string from my calligraphy project, kids were talking about me at Table One, and when I was going back to my table, they all stared at me. I fixed my hat.

Camel Menthol Crushes. Monday. No sooner, awesome. I should have reminded him that I haven't smoked in two fucking weeks.