laurelpants

my mom just told me :)
I hope Courtland will be there too.
I feel really lame for not having friends, but whatever.

Today was really boring.
I woke up at 7 which was not cool, so I went back to sleep. But then Tim came out and started talking about this medicine my grandpa has to take now. So I was up at 10 and went out to eat breakfast with Tim. At his house, there aren't sugar cereals.
All day I was on the computer and didn't talk to anybody at all.
I can't remember what I did, but I was mad most of the time.
None of the bands I want will appear for me on Limewire and it really pisses me off.
I hate you Pandora, just for that.
Laura wanted to pick me up at like 4, so she did. I don't like being in the car when Laura drives, it makes me really nervous.
THen at her house we watched the best show EVER. "I can't believe she's going out with him" It's my new favorite show <33333333456 Silent Library isn't as great, I laughed because I felt obligated.
Then Laura started making plans to go to WalMart with Jessie, Lisa, and Courtland. Courtland didn't go, but I did. It made me mad that Laura thought I wanted to go because I couldn't wait like 18 hours to see what they got me present wise. I don't even like Christmas. I don't have birthday parties. Presents aren't really a high priority of mine.

I feel like Lisa and I are really drifting apart and it really makes me angry. I hate it when friendships kind of fall back and I think if maybe I just sucked not liking Antonio up this wouldn't have happened.. But I do spend much more time with Laura and Jessie rather than Lisa. I hate it. I feel so bad.

When I got home, everyone was arguing at the dinner table -they hadn't left like I thought they had.
I ate on the back porch because my family has secrets I'm not allowed to know.
I hate secrets. I hate people who make my mom feel bad.


Dave is a drug dealer, that's why he has money buried in his yard.